Every time I take a step down an already-known path of success, I feel compelled to blow it up 🔥⁠

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Something in me is fundamentally oriented towards uncompromisingly honouring the unfolding of my unique essence.⁠

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(damn that sounds pretentious 😂)⁠

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Which - I've recognized - is part of why I intermittently need to post something edgy, offside, or "questionable."⁠

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It is my own way of breaking out of the cage I've opted into.⁠

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It is a self-regulatory method of keeping myself in alignment with my emergent essence & evolution.⁠

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I simply cannot compromise what feels good to me in lieu of belonging to a group/path/identity.⁠

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There is a grief around the fact that I don't experience a sense of belonging & being in the "cool club" in ways that I have longed for.⁠

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And - I've come to see that I would rather not belong than compromise the call of my inner being.⁠

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This could be summed up as an intense refusal to settle.⁠

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And, a strong insistence from life that I forge an unknown path to "success" by attuning continuously to how life wants to express itself through me.⁠

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Ultimately this is an ongoing initiation of 𝒍𝒊𝒃𝒆𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒚 𝒖𝒏𝒊𝒒𝒖𝒆 𝒆𝒙𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏.⁠

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Every time I seek a "safer" and less exposing path of expression, eventually I feel suppressed enough that I am compelled to break out once again.⁠

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I don't share this to sound "unique" in this need - as I know there are others who feel this way.⁠

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I share this as part of my own personal declaration AND as something that may activate the same recognition in you ⚡