The Erotic Child
In the beginning, our first heart connection is with our parents.
Also in the beginning, our first SEXUAL connection is typically with our parents.
I'm not referring to overt sexual interaction, I'm referring to the simple arising of sexual energy.
But this is confusing and unless your parents have fully integrated their own sexuality (highly unlikely), you probably experienced their subconscious rejection of your sexuality.
Not their fault, they just didn't know how to respond to your sexuality in a healthy way.
The outcome of this is the SEPARATION of your heart from your sacral/sexual centre.
This is the conditioned default within most of us.
And it leads to carrying fear, shame, & unworthiness around our sexuality.
The unconscious narrative is: "If I let my sexual energy open up, the love will be withdrawn"
So then when we DO connect sexually with another, we close our hearts.
Sexual connection without love.
Love without sexual connection.
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Feel into this.
If it's true for you, there's nothing to do or fix.
You don't need to force anything.
The first step is noticing and being very very gentle with these young parts.