Getting off the Healing Hamster Wheel 2.0

I would rather care for myself than endlessly fix myself.

The more I heal, the more I find that there is to heal.

As I’ve “mapped” my nervous system and learned about all of its wobbles & patterns,

And integrated a ton along the way - (which of course I will continue doing because it’s the path my soul has chosen in this life),

It is so clear that our traumas & voids simultaneously lead to the development of our gifts.

With this seeing - it is so much easier to honour my totality.

To bring compassion to the full picture of who I am.

And to orient around understanding what it is that I need in order to blossom.

Rather than orienting around the endless spiral of healing.

(Which carries on, regardless).

I am no longer at the mercy of the belief that everything that shows up in my life that doesn’t feel good, is something I need to actively learn from or step into.

Sometimes the learning is the simple recognition that this thing does not feel supportive. Therefore - set a boundary.

This deep self-compassion also translates into boundaries around feedback or the “mirror” that others endeavour to hold up.

I don’t need to accept reflections from someone who delivers them in a manner that is insensitive to my wounding. Period.

My capacity to care for myself exceeds my desire to “grow at all costs.”

And that, I think, has been the most meaningful growth so far 😉